Growing

Last night we went to visit Joy. She just had her adorable baby girl, Brielli. She was born 2 weeks early and weighs almost as much as Patrick did when he was born, but oh my God she is so tiny! I swear Patrick was never that tiny!

I can't believe how much he has grown already! And now he is so very close to rolling over. He babbles, he grabs at everything (on purpose) and puts it right in his mouth. He is just amazing and I feel so blessed to have him. He's this perfect little creature and I can't believe he's mine. Ok, yes I do share him with Drew, I promise! So - I can't believe he's ours =)

People always say children grow up so fast. It is so true. I swear it was just yesterday that I was holding him for the first time, feeling so uncertain, so overwhelmed with this tiny thing I was now responsible for...and soon he'll be sitting up all on his own and eating solid food, and really talking...then walking...then going off to school...

But, today, right now, he needs to be snuggled. So I'm off to go do that =)

My first time alone with Patrick!

Yesterday, I spent my first afternoon/evening with Patrick all by myself. It was so much fun! I was a little nervous about running out of milk (which I did, right at the end), and whether or not he would be crying all the time. That last one I knew wouldn't happen, but that doesn't mean I wasn't worried about it. True to form, we had a great time together. He watched me play video games, and even helped a few times (grabby little hands)!!! He even slept a nice 2/3 hour stretch which let me just kind of relax by myself, which was nice. All in all, I'd say that I passed my first real test of handling a baby all alone. I can't wait for round 2!

Alone with Daddy

So Drew got to watch the baby for 5 hours yesterday. It was actually only supposed to be 3, but you know how life works. Thank goodness there was enough milk!

I came home and the baby was happy, dry, fed, and smiling. And Drew says they had a blast together.

Wonderful =)

Ma...Ma...Ma

Ok, they are just sounds. He's not actually saying "Mama" and it certainly isn't something he's associating with me...

But tell that to my little heart. Whenever I hear him say "ma...ma...ma" my heart just pitter-patters.

Dr. Franz

We had Patrick's 4 month check up today. By some fluke we ended up having the appointment with the very sought-after, difficult to schedule, Dr.Franz. What a fantastically awesome lady!!!

It was such a great appointment, we got so much awesome information, and mom and I will be going to a Chinese medicine seminar there this Sunday (Drew gets to babysit for the first time! Which I am sure will make for a great blog post this weekend - from both of us.)

I know we won't always be able to get an appointment with her, but I do hope we will get another one soon. She also has done more research and has new views on vaccinations so I get to do more research on that subject, but we all know how I love to go research crazy, so it'll be fun =D

Alright, and now the moment you've all been waiting for...the data...

Patrick is once again off the charts - 17.5lbs and 26.5inches. That is quite the gain and growth since his 2 month check-up. Dr. Franz said he's just perfect!

I love it when people say that =P

A Date

Drew and I went out on a little date today. We had a little breakfast together, watched Alice in Wonderland Imax3D (Awesome!!!) and drove around a bit with the windows down and chatted. My mom babysat for us. We had a really great time together, but we both found it funny that we really could have had the baby tag along and it probably would not have been much different. I mean, there was not this huge sense of relief with having a break from the baby. Regardless, we had a very nice time and I know my mom was excited to get to babysit.

I know it is important for us to be able to spend time together, just us. I feel very lucky to know that we will be able to do that on occasion, no problem. But it is also nice to realize that we really do get a good amount of "us" time even with the baby.

And yes, we did miss him while we were out =P

It was a really nice day with Drew. And when I got home I had a baby fall asleep in my arms -that was really nice too.

4 Months a Mommy

Patrick is 4 months old. Obviously this means that I have been a mommy for 4 months. I enjoy being a mommy. I actually really do. But, I feel very unmotivated, unfocused and a bit lost. Sometimes I find myself wondering "Now what?"

I spent 9 (10) months being pregnant and preparing for the baby, 14 hours bringing the baby into the world, and now, 4 months later...now what?

Of course there is a huge focus on Patrick, taking care of him and snuggling him like crazy. But what about me? The thing is, I have no idea! My wonderful acupuncturist has said that I need to find things to do just for myself, and I need to give the baby to other people to take care of. I thought those would be easy tasks, but they are not.

So now I need to figure out what I want to do. That has never been easy for me, and nearing 30, I really should have an idea shouldn't I?

It's funny to think I have been me for almost 30 years and have no idea what to do with myself, but I have been a mommy for only 4 months and seem to be doing that really well.